This can be hard, and I don't know that it's much talked about publicly, but we do talk about it privately.
That said, I'm not feeling too envious today. Yesterday was a day off, I think the book is in good shape (will hear back from other beta readers soon), and the sky is blue and the weather warmish for this time of year.
Again, as a writer, as with any other public entertainer, or any other person, you have to concentrate on the moment and that you have done your job well. If I want to break out of my midlist position, I must write something more popular, something that will get my editors behind me and push for the bigger numbers. So, that's what I can do myself to be less envious.
I can cherish the moment. It's been fifteen minutes and Tommy has only whined once. I have my lovely house and some good tea and a pretty day and a neighborhood where I can walk down to get primo bread. These things count.
Now, about the PEARLS, Heart Fate took Honorable Mention in the category I was in (Futuristic Romance). Yes,I felt a twinge of disappointment. But Jayne Ann Krentz (Jayne Castle) won for Dark Light. And she is a wonderful lady and I love, and buy, all her work. They are main comfort reads for me, whether she is Jayne Castle, Jayne Ann Krentz, or Amanda Quick. Those books are rewards...I got the latest as soon as I finished Heart Change.
So I can honestly say that I am sincerely happy she won the PEARL in my category. She is my hero.
And since I spent all day yesterday listening to music, trying to put together a strong soundtrack for my WORLDS website page and didn't actually DO the rest of my website work. I need to get to work.
But first I'll take a walk.
Whatever you do today, YOU'RE a winner.